Today, is a day that I won't forget. Firstly, I really can't wait that today October 31st which is a Halloween night to come because The All American Rejects are coming to perform. And what I can't wait is that I'm also gonna be jamming in the afternoon and this whole day is gonna be a blast. But, my bestfriend called me up. Telling me about a job offer that she has. Everything suddenly from happy and cheery turns to moody and dark.
Well, duh!! I should be like fucking happy for her, but what I am not happy is that, we were talking about this stupid issue for quite sometime already. We went to the interview together, and she ended up having the job but I don't. And the worst thing is, she wants to be in that company. And the other sucky thing is, SHE FUCKING PROMISED ME back at 2007, February 3rd on that night when she is gonna fly off to Melbourne. I said this to her ' Promise that you'll come back and we'll work together' And she nodded and said ' Promise' And we break down to tears and cried. Oh come on, I am there, I was there and I witnest every fucking single thing. My ears don't deceived me. She even remembered that damn promised she and me made. Now, we can't find job and when she feels like she is drowned by this shitty job she's having, that don't offer her much, she only thinks about herself.
I mean, what is she so fucking afraid off? I mean, she has a freaking degree all the way from Melbourne, her drawing is great, she has a lot of potential, she knows more softwares than me, she can draw life drawing, figure drawing plus carricature. I mean, compare to me, what the fuck do I even have? I can't even draw figure drawings perfectly, I can't draw carricature and I definitely knows lesser softwares than her. And I only have a diploma. Obviously every other companies will definitely pick her. I'm like over shadowed by her. I am nothing when she is standing beside me but all this while, I thought that she will not leave me. But in the fucking end, today, October 31st at 2.05 p.m she called me up. I knew there was something up. Something not right. And yes, I was right. She told me she have the offer letter and she was planning to accept it and start working there in the middle of November. I was like, what the fuck. I mean, seriously. You dare to just leave me and let me rot in our working place? I mean, is that what she wants? Is that okay for her to leave me there? Is it okay for her that our friendship is going to just burn up like that just because of a freaking job that she so wanted in her whole entire fucking life? So what if she's struggling in this work? So what if it is not an animation job? So what if it isn't the pay that she expect? Everything. This are the questions that are running in her fucking mind. I can easily shoot it back to her. I earned like more than RM1500 the last job I have and now just cut the '0' out of the RM1500 and what do you get? That's like how much I'm earning right now. I do complain but the job isn't that tension and all. I am happily working there. I do have pride but seriously, this job is not as bad as her fucking mind thinks. I know she wants to quit because she has face and the money. But she never think one thing. What will happen to this friendship? When I tell her the circumstances, she don't think that it is gonna happen. She even can say this to me' I won't let this happen' What she meant by that is, she won't let my friendship and her friendship fall'
Seriously, after today, I learned a new thing. In this fucking world. There's no one. Absolutely no one you could trust. Not even your boyfriend. The greatest guy or girl you have ever met also can't trust. Parents or family also can't trust. But that usually depends. My bestfriend, is the first person I ever put my whole heart into. I trusted her, I even believed in her. Follow every advice she gave me. But now, trust. The word trust is the third word I will not believed and won't mean anything to me anymore. Thanks to her, she is the last bestfriend I'm ever gonna have. Because bestfriends, you have to trust in them to become one. So since trust is not there anymore, I don't think I wanna have anymore bestfriends after her. All I can say to her now is that, 'good luck in your freaking job. Hope your life is much more better there than being rotting with me in this current job we're having. I'm so glad that I met you so that I know how is the feeling when you get betrayed by someone whom you so loved so much and never expect it.'
Well, I just came back from the concert and I'm so bushed up. Better get some sleep. Did I mentioned how emotional I got? Even when the concert was about to start, I was still moody in a way.No matter what, this situation will not settle until I get a job or get THE JOB itself.Well, it is already 3.00 a.m. Better run. So, people, remember. Don't trust anyone. Well, that's really up to you anyway. Bye and goodnight.

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Movies I am dieing to watch this October:

- The Time Traveler’s Wife (Watched Already)
- 500 Days Of Summer
- Sorority Row (Watched Already)
- Surrogates (Watched Already)
- Pandorum (Not sure whether wanna watch)
- Whiteout(Watched Already)
- The Law Abiding citizens
- Cloudy With A chance of Meatballs (Watched Already)
- Inglorious Basterds (Not sure whether wanna watch)
- Ninja (Watched Already)
- Love Happens
- Jennifers Body (Watched Already)

Movies I am dieing to watch this November:
- Doraemon: Nobita and the Green GiantLegend(CANT)(Not sure whether wanna watch)
- Phobia 2 (Thai)
- Raging Pheonix (Thai)
- Pisau Cukur (Not sure whether wanna watch)
- 2012
- Astro Boy
- A Christmas Carol
- Where the Wild things are
- Planet 51
- Ninja Assasin
- Mulan (Not sure whether wanna watch)
- Post Grad